Transformation & Butterflies.

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“How does one become a butterfly?” she asked pensively.

Orange Butterfly: “You must want to fly so much that you are willing to give up being a caterpillar.” – Trina Paulus

When I received a phone call telling me that my father had committed suicide, I hit the floor—both figuratively and literally. It is devastating news when someone passes, but a suicide is especially hard to deal with.

Thank goodness I can not predict the future, because If I had known in that moment what the next few years had in store for me, I’m sure I would have given up right then and there. Instead, I somehow found the strength and courage to get up off of the floor that day and on the many days following my father’s death. It wasn’t always pretty or consistent, and much of it I did for my children and husband who needed me, but I did get up as much as I was able to.

Grief is such a personal process to go through for each individual. When we get bad news—life altering news—such as finding out about a loved one’s death, there is no way to tell how we will react, but in my experience, we will and do find ways of coping with our loss.

Somehow, we seem to embrace what it is deep inside of each of us that will help us to survive a loss. These tools that we carry at the core of our beings help us to maneuver our way through the unthinkable situations which are put before us in life.

Further, these tools can be used consciously and sometimes unconsciously. But, each and every one of us has an outlet of some sorts. Continue reading

Because I Love You More than You May Ever Know.

6c9e2a90bb268dc9528aee0649baf3347d1afed3 (2)“Are you awake?”

I hear nothing in return but his gentle breathing and weigh the consequences of whispering aloud again.

I understand that he needs his sleep. But, at the same time, I sense the lonely weight of being the only one awake with unsaid words that press urgently against my heart. Words that need to be spoken.bedsanoma.jpg

“Honey, are you up?”

A few moments pass and then he utters a soft “uh-huh” as he turns to face my direction—his lovely familiar and sleepy, relaxed face glowing in the moonlight streaming through the window.

“Can I ask you something?”

“Yeah, I guess so.” He replies.

I decide to say what has been on my mind. . .

“Remember the last time I saw my dad and I thought he was dying because I felt that his soul had left his body, but no one believed me? Everyone told me that I was going crazy because there seemed to be nothing wrong with him, but then he took his life ten days later.

Well, I wish with every fiber of my heart that I had told him everything I felt about him while I still had the chance. I regret that I didn’t reveal that I knew something was wrong, but my feelings were influenced by other’s reactions so much that I felt too awkward and stupid to mention anything to him.

You know how nothing is certain in life? And I do feel that you and I are certain, but I can’t bear the thought of ever having to live without you. Continue reading

Walk Away from the Negative & Toward the Positive in 3 Steps.

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In order to carry a positive action we must develop here a positive vision.” ~ His Holiness the Dalai Lama

I have been running across the concept of dealing with one’s outlook, inner thoughts and spoken words more and more lately. I don’t know about anyone else, but I feel the universe brings us concepts when we are ready to appreciate and utilize them.

The concept is simple to understand when one is open to it—Let’s say one is spending their time dreading a party—well guess what? This may become a self fulfilling prophesy that will grow inside of them until it manifests in real life.

What if instead, one is open to thinking, “There are a few people at that party that will be really interesting to talk to” or another positive statement such as this? You guessed it—this will become one’s outlook when they walk into that party. And they may actually enjoy their experience!

Further—the very best part about it? It can be anyone’s option to choose the second, more positive stance. Once someone makes a habit of thinking in terms like this, great things start happening. People are more attracted to positive people, doors that were once closed will open, and best of all—the person who makes a conscious decision to change the way they think becomes much more fulfilled by taking a positive role in directing his or her own life.

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I have made up a short guide about this that is in no way all-inclusive of all situations possible, but here is a sampling: Continue reading

Sensual & Graceful AcroYoga. {Video}

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“All that is important is this one moment in movement. Make the moment important, vital, and worth living. Do not let it slip away unnoticed and unused.” – Martha Graham

It would seem that there are so many thoughts on what real yoga is—Is it done in a heated room? In a studio? At home? On our heads?

While I am guilty of having my own opinions, I have neither done nor seen anything remotely similar to the likes of what is in the following video in any yoga class that I have been to.

But, the other day, when a friend shared this video, I found it to be very beautiful, sensual, and uplifting. The choreography is so graceful and I felt others might agree and gain a little appreciation and inspiration from watching it as well.

Enjoy!

Photos: Screen shots from video.

Sweetest Sister Ever Expresses her Feelings about her Baby Brother.

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This is the sweetest story/video that I have come across in quite some time. (Warning: You may need a tissue or two.)

“Leave it to a very special and wise-hearted little girl to remind us what is truly important in life: Feelings of love. Enjoying a loved one’s smile. And most of all, being present in our emotions and our relationships so that we may enjoy each precious moment that we are given with vulnerability and open hearts.”

To see the minute-long video and read the rest of the article, click here:

http://www.elephantjournal.com/2014/07/sister-doesnt-want-baby-brother-to-grow-up/

Let Your Love & Light Shine.

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The only obsession everyone wants: ‘love.’ People think that in falling in love they make themselves whole? The Platonic union of souls? I think otherwise. I think you’re whole before you begin. And the love fractures you. You’re whole, and then you’re cracked open. ” ~ Philip Roth

To read entire article, please click link:  Let Your Love & Light Shine.